Yes soon we will be far apart, soon we won’t longer be so close, and soon I could me many hundreds of miles away. Somewhere that feeling can be scary. I would like to make the best of the time that is left but right now it feels like a lot is working against me. Like there is no other way then what is right now, and it just won’t change no matter how hard I try. It’s sad to think that I am right now the one that hopping for a change and still the only one. For me to try to turn things around is kind of useless.

I want the last months to be months of many memories, days to remember.  If this will be the case I doubt today but I can’t do more than hope.

Most likely these last months will count more then many think, these months will for me trigger or kill what happens the coming years and who will be in it!

//Enid